Kieran Felix White

Kieran Felix White is a character played by junodog18.

Kieran is a 38-year-old man who looks like he's 20 and sounds like a preteen. He is a former member of the Smileys who was brainwashed by Kenneth Jesperson and later released from Kenneth's control by the man himself. He is awkward, quiet, and has severe brain damage which causes troubles with memory and emotional control, migraines, nosebleeds and seizures. Kieran's memories are of a life as an alien who was born and raised on Earth, but a DNA test performed by Humane Labs revealed that he is, in fact, human. Whether he was turned human or he was always human and his memories are a fabrication built on trauma is unknown.

Before Los Santos
Kieran's life, as he remembers it, started in a small mountain town in Colorado. He was born on March 4, 1984, in a house owned by a woman named Helen, who helped Kieran's mother Anaysia establish a life for herself on Earth. Anaysia left her home planet after a heated argument with her husband about whether they should even have a child and chose Earth as a place to hide due to the similarities in physiology between her species and humans.

Kieran's early childhood was a good one. Helen was a well-meaning soul, though she could be a bit much at times, and she allowed mother and child to live in her second house as "live-in maintenance." Because Helen worked as a nurse in a small town, she was able to get Kieran a birth certificate without any issue.

In August of 1990, Anaysia rejected the advances of a man who was known in the town for being... well, an all-around terrible person. The man, in turn, murdered Anaysia in cold blood in front of her son, and Kieran nearly suffocated under the weight of his mother's corpse before an agent of a secret government agency found him and brought him to a research facility where Kieran spent the next ten years of his life. Those ten years were miserable for Kieran and he was only able to leave after an incident that resulted in him possibly killing a man who was attempting to brainwash him into being some kind of super-soldier.

After this, Kieran began to hit puberty, which for his species meant he would go through many physical changes, such as growing a whole bunch of new bones, that were painful and extremely upsetting to him due to his sensory issues (a result of Kieran being autistic, among other things). He was able to meet someone else from his mother's home planet who gave him a lore unlock about his past and advice on how to deal with the physical changes, and Kieran was eventually able to reach a point of stability and happiness in his life, and he decided to change things up a bit and move somewhere new.

Los Santos
Things began to unravel when Kieran arrived in Los Santos. He couldn't use the super cool psychic powers he remembered developing in his mid-20s, the extra bones were removed in a process he doesn't even remember happening, and he began experiencing symptoms that one would find in a patient with dementia or Alzheimer's. Then, after going through the brainwashing process in a place Mr. Smiley called Neverland, Kieran underwent brain surgery to get a mass removed from his head. Kieran had been under the impression that this mass was a fifth lobe in his brain, but it also seemed to have very similar characteristics to a tumor. It was removed and Kieran was able to keep the preserved mass. It's in a jar in his apartment and he could have it tested to see if it's really a tumor but he doesn't want to because he still holds onto the hope that the memories of his past life are real.

Jasper and the end of CarcerWorld
The whole Jasper thing made things very difficult for the Smileys and CarcerWorld. After the kidnapping of Ash Ketchup, Kieran made an attempt to kill Hanna Baker but failed and experienced a major brain bleed, resulting in him regressing to a childlike state where he could no longer remember anything past his mother's death. He was tortured by Baker as well as various members of Seaside and as a result sustained more damage to his brain, which caused him to start having seizures.

Around a week later, Betty Jax, another member of the Smileys who had previously been brainwashed by an individual named Alexander Rex, found himself back under Rex's control and became Bile. Bile attacked the other members of the Smileys, throwing two of them off of a roof and slashing Kieran in the neck. Kieran was tasked with trying to gain Bile's trust and bring him back to the Smileys so they could get Betty back, but it went poorly when Kieran became convinced that Bile was about to kill him. Kieran stabbed Bile shortly before experiencing a brain bleed and losing consciousness. This resulted in Kieran's first criminal charge and prison stay.

After this, Bile and Rex laid out a trap for Kieran and kidnapped him. The two of them tortured Kieran in the room on top of Mt. Chiliad. Rex performed the more severe acts of torture, such as carving the word 'pataku' into the bone on Kieran's left arm, breaking Kieran's jaw, and surgically amputating Kieran's left leg (which was salvaged and reattached at Pillbox). Not long after this, Betty's and Honey's story seemingly came to an end when the two of them fell from the rail bridge over Cassidy Trail and ended up comatose in the hospital.

Through all this and afterwards, Kieran's condition was getting worse, to the point where he was having nosebleeds on a daily basis. He asked Kenneth if he knew what was happening to him, and Kenneth, despite having lost most of his family and knowing the risks of relinquishing his control over Kieran, decided to release Kieran from the brainwashing, which had been indirectly causing Kieran's condition to worsen.

Doggo
Kieran got a service dog whose legal name is Percy but he calls Gangster Bear, after his friend Percy Perkins who is no longer in the city. He was going to get a dog named Sock, but Flop Dugong, who was fostering Sock, found he couldn't bear to lose the dog he'd grown so attached to (which is very fair and valid) and worked things out with Kieran and Balto Connelly and Kieran was able to get a dog of his own while Flop got to keep Sock. Flop promised the dogs could have a doggy playdate and as of July 23, 2023, this playdate still hasn't happened.

The Not-Relationship
A while after Kieran was released from Kenneth's control, after Kenneth had turned himself in, Kieran had a conversation with Thomas Normady that resulted in a relationship that wasn't really a relationship but more of a friends with benefits thing. Kieran, being Kieran, felt like it was more than that, but Thomas insisted it wasn't, and there was relationship drama but also not really because Kieran tried to pretend he was cool with things being the way they were because he was really happy and Thomas was hot and Kieran has issues. After a while, Kieran decided to finally cut contact with Kenneth for good and also made the decision to see if he could find someone who was emotionally available and willing to try out an actual relationship with him.

Then his therapist died and Kieran got targeted by the Hound, a serial killer who goes after other serial killers, and basically Kieran went into a spiral. He learned about Norman Bones, made friends with Storm Peyton, broke things off with Thomas, then decided he couldn't live without his Scottish Dommy Daddy and worked things out while also accidentally drawing Thomas's attention to Norman. Kieran went into a panic mode, tried to prevent Thomas from getting too far into the stuff with Norman, made things worse, and eventually decided to make a deal with Norman in order to protect Thomas. Norman accepted the deal and Kieran spent two months chilling in Purgatory, where he was definitely coping just fine and not slowly going insane due to the complete and utter silence and solitude.

Return from Purgatory
Kieran came back from Purgatory after making a deal with Norman that he very much regretted agreeing to, but this isn't anything new. He was nonverbal for a long time and things went south with Thomas. Thomas was spiraling and eventually died during a police chase, at which point Kieran was able to start speaking again. Kieran made sure Thomas's chicken, Detective Nugget, was retrieved from Thomas's apartment, and has been working to adopt said chicken as Gangster Bear is good friends with him.

Neon Tigers
After returning from Purgatory, Kieran became a hangaround for the Neon Tigers. This was something he'd wanted to do before the whole Purgatory thing and he was made a prospect and patched in over the next few months. He is absolutely thrilled to be a part of the club and is doing his best to help his new family as best he can. Also Sebastian Ableton is his ex-shadow husband.

Significant People in Kieran's Life Not Mentioned Above

 * Cassandra Silverton (boss)
 * Mackenzie Hayes (cop friend)
 * Anita May (cop friend)
 * Odessa Glafx (friend who became a cop)
 * Maggie Gunn (boss)
 * Fauna May Flowers (friend and fellow former Smiley)
 * a bunch of other people